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Ivy Smoak
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My relationship with my husband has been splashed all over the tabloids ever since we first started dating. What should I have expected when I took New York City's most eligible bachelor off the market?
But no matter how long I'm with my husband, I can't shake the feeling that a stroke of luck brought me here. That I don't deserve the life around me. And I swear, if one more paparazzi takes a picture of me I'm going to freaking lose my mind.
I needed to prove to myself that I'm not worthless. So I wrote a novel under a pen name, but I've been rejected by so many literary agents I've lost count. And I'm so consumed with this idea that I need more out of life that I never had a chance to see the real story unfolding around me. The story that would threaten the life I took for granted.
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Started out slow but got better after every page read.
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Ending leaves you...what
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great series
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The Light To My Darkness
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OMG! And I thought I was done feeling this kind of stress, this kind of unending compulsion to keep reading and finish a book as quickly as possible just to find out what happens next! This author has a way of getting the most out of a scene, chapter, etc. that makes you, the reader, so I vested in these characters that you really just can’t stop reading - chores be damned!
I knew this was a continuation from the first 4 books and I thought that since James and Penny were finally together that they’d have their HEA. Ugh, I was right, but oh so wrong at the same time!! Please, please keep the kiddos in this book alive and safe and keep the thriving and please let Penny and James find their HEA! ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
The Light to My Darkness
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Penny's struggles
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great read
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my first time reading on a long time
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HORRIBLE ENDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Shocked
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