Go Back and Get It

A Memoir of Race, Inheritance, and Intergenerational Healing

By: Dionne Ford

Narrated by: Dionne Ford

An unexpected family photograph leads Dionne Ford to uncover the stories of her enslaved female ancestors, reclaim their power, and begin to heal

Countless Black Americans descended from slavery are related to the enslavers who bought and sold their ancestors. Among them is Dionne Ford, whose great grandmother was the last of six children born to a Louisiana cotton broker and the enslaved woman he received as a wedding gift.

What shapes does this kind of intergenerational trauma take? In this book, which move between her inner life and deep research, Ford tells us. It manifests as alcoholism and post-traumatic stress; it finds echoes in her own experience of sexual abuse at the hands of a relative, and in the ways in which she builds her own interracial family.

To heal, Ford tries a wide range of therapies, lifestyle changes, and recovery meetings. “Anything,” she writes, “to keep from going back there.” But what she learns is that she needs to go back there, to return to her female ancestors, and unearth what she can about them to start to feel whole.

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©2023 Dionne Ford (P)2023 Bold Type Books

Critic reviews

“A fascinating American odyssey quite unlike any other you are likely to encounter, beautifully written, heartfelt, at times painfully candid, and deeply moving.”—Joyce Carol Oates

“Go Back and Get It tells the remarkable story of Dionne Ford’s search for healing both in the present and in the past. This book offers inspiration and hope for everyone who wants to discover their ancestry and who seeks to connect their own trauma to larger social structures. Ford’s thesis that America is founded on the rape of black women is convincing and terrible, but her understanding is a gift and a triumph.”—Alice Elliott Dark, author of Fellowship Point and In the Gloaming

“In this piercing, moving memoir, Dionne Ford opens the doors to her family’s past and reclaims the lost history of her enslaved ancestors, finding healing for her personal traumas and offering a vision of how our nation might heal its own. She shows us that the painful truths that we often keep buried are the ones we must unearth if we are ever to become whole.”—Rachel L. Swarns, author of American Tapestry and The 272

Deeply moving

There are many memoirs by authors searching for their ancestors, including Black Americans whose forebears were enslaved (Memorial Drive comes to mind). This is one of the best. Complicating many of these searches is the not uncommon fact that some ancestors were enslavers who owned and abused other of the author's ancestors. Dionne Ford has richly tied her own ancestral search to trauma experienced in her own life and the many roads she has traveled to find recovery and full identity. She discovers multicultural variations in dealing with trauma and in integrating complicated, conflicted ancestral histories, some South American and others African in origin. Even some of the words Ms. Ford has come across in these cultures are used to great effect by her in appreciating the infinite ways human beings have of making sense of life. She vividly conveys the experience of being dark-skinned in a family where some members look more like their white ancestors. The dangers of being Black in America whether in the present day or in past centuries are described in gripping examples, and all of the people Ms. Ford meets in life or through historical research are fully realized.
This book should appeal to a wide variety of readers. The author writes elegantly...and reads her own words in a beautiful voice that fully conveys the experiences she describes. I hope this book achieves a broad and large readership...reading it is an enriching experience.
NB There are more than a few errors in usage, especially verb tenses. Catching these was the job of the copy editor and I hope they will be corrected in future editions. This book should be considered by jurors who make nominations for major, prestigious literary awards, and editorial oversights should not be allowed to get in the way.

Highly recommend

Such a powerful story. A must listen and please share, especially with your women friends, raising young women. Wow.