Bleeding Chaos

Love & Lyrics, Book 4

By: Nikki Ash

Narrated by: Gregory Salinas, Kelsey Navarro

Length: 6 hrs and 41 mins

Publisher's summary

Gage

I lost my first love. This time, I'm going to win the second girl who owns my heart—no matter the stakes.

Being the drummer for Raging Chaos is the only thing that’s kept me going for the past six years. Even the music isn’t enough to drown out the guilt that's been suffocating me since what happened to Tori.

When Sadie storms into my life, ripping through my trepidations, sorrows, and bitterness, I can't help but wonder if she could be my second chance.

I could love her, but in order to do that, I have to stop hating myself first.
Easier said than done. Before I have the chance to mend this broken heart, I push Sadie away and hit rock bottom.

The next time I see her, she has a baby. And if that's not hurtful enough, it's not just any baby.

It’s my baby.

Sadie

Bleeding hearts can still beat. I'm living proof of that.

At first, Gage was just someone to take away the pain—until I realized he was battling demons of his own.

I never meant to get too close to the devil with the drumsticks, but once I did, he shoved me out of his life with a force.

My heart might be cracked, but his is completely broken. And trying to save him would destroy us both.

So, I do the right thing and I walk away—not only to protect me but also our unborn baby.

I had no idea who Gage was to the world when I slipped into his bed. Now that I'm out of it, it's clear he’ll have to clean up his act before he’s father material.

But then we meet again, and I'm reminded of the man he could be.

The man he was born to be, before tragedy struck and the chaos left his heart barely beating.

Author's note: Like real life, the characters are far from perfect, make morally gray decisions, and deal with subjects that may be sensitive for some listeners. If you are looking for a safe romance, this series is not for you. Trigger warnings (which contain spoilers) can be found on my website.

©2023 Nikki Ash (P)2023 Pink Flamingo Productions

Such a good ending to the series

I loved this so much! Such an emotional read but so perfect. Gages story was so good

DO NOT Miss This Book!!

“𝙎𝙞𝙣𝙘𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙙𝙖𝙮 𝙄 𝙢𝙚𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪, 𝙄 𝙠𝙣𝙚𝙬 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙖 𝙜𝙖𝙢𝙚 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙧. 𝙔𝙤𝙪’𝙧𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙡𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩𝙣𝙚𝙨𝙨 𝙞𝙣 𝙢𝙮 𝙙𝙖𝙧𝙠, 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙮 𝙗𝙧𝙤𝙠𝙚𝙣. 𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝙧𝙚𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙢𝙚 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮 𝙙𝙖𝙮 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚 𝙞𝙨 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙩𝙝 𝙡𝙞𝙫𝙞𝙣𝙜.”

The story I have been patiently impatiently waiting for since the first Love and Lyrics book is finally here. And what an emotional doozy it is!
I just knew Nikki Ash was saving the most angsty and heart wrenching for last! Oh my poor heart was in so much pain for Gage already but then Sadie just wrecked it tenfold. I was reading with my hand on my heart like Nikki no more. Gage had all the love and support from his found family but it wasn’t enough to keep away the internal demons he fought daily.
In one day, Sadie’s life changed irrevocably in the most heart shattering of ways. She and Gage met when they’re at the lowest point in their lives. They were both two broken souls who found comfort in each other while they drowned in their shared griefs.

“𝙄’𝙢 𝙜𝙤𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙤 𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙩𝙧𝙪𝙨𝙩, 𝙎𝙖𝙙𝙞𝙚, 𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙙𝙖𝙮 𝙖𝙩 𝙖 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚. 𝘼𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙣…𝙄’𝙢 𝙜𝙤𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙤 𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙣 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙩.”

When they first met, neither Sadie nor Gage was emotionally equipped to handle anything more than the surface level solace they shared. Yet, below the surface, feelings developed, terrifying and unexpected. While Sadie had a reason to bring her out of the dark, Gage still was in a tailspin. It took incredible strength and courage but Gage brought himself out the darkness. I applaud Nikki for not only her amazing mental health and positive therapy representation but the message of how you are the only person who can save you. While having the love and support of your family is an indescribable gift, it’s you who must take that first step towards recovery. I also saw the challenge and bravery that comes along with taking that first step. It is not an easily accomplished feat. Nikki truly made me feel the struggle Gage went through in his desire to overcome his addiction. My emotions were all over the place during my read. I’m talking every single feel.

“𝙃𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙚𝙣𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙖𝙜𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙧𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙖𝙡𝙬𝙖𝙮𝙨 𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚.” - Maya Angelou

Gage and Sadie truly embodied this quote because after everything they’d been through, they had every reason to give up on love but instead they gave in and I absolutely lived to see that.
To say their story consumed me is an understatement. It was an amazingly beautiful one of resilience, growth, self-triumph, grief, love after devastating loss, and just so much more leaving me with the warmest feeling in my heart and tears brimming of joy.

What a phenomenal ending to this emotional journey of a series. It’s so bittersweet to say goodbye.

Gregory Salinas and Kelsey Navarro did a freaking mazing with the narration! They perfectly complement the story!

Beautifully written.

Bleeding Chaos by: Nikki Ash
Narrated by: Gregory Salinas, Kelsey Navarro

From Loss to Love 😭
Such a wonderfully beautiful story.
I lost someone to addiction, so this story hit close to home for me.

A Secret Baby Rock Star Romance

Bleeding Chaos by Nikki Ash is a secret baby rock star romance that I listened to on audio narrated by Gregory Salinas and Kelsey Navarro. This is the fourth book in the Love and Lyrics series.

I absolutely love Nikki's books! I can't help but binge them in one sitting. I loved the relationship that bloomed between Gage and Sadie. I really enjoyed getting both of their points of views throughout the book. It really brought the story to life.

Gregory and Kelsey did an amazing job on the narration. They both really know how to bring a story to life. I look forward to listening to more of their work in the future.

I would recommend this book if you like secret baby romances, rock star romance, or contemporary romances.

The Flock Team

beautiful story

This book is so amazing and got me so emotional 😭 one of my fav from the series

Epic Story

Gregory is fast becoming one of my favorite narrators. Along side the amazing Kelsey, I knew this audio was going to sound so good.
Nikki Ash never disappoints in delivering a steamy story with so much emotion and heat packed in.

Listening to Gage and Sadie’s story while heartbreaking at times was absolutely beautiful.
Well done everyone!!!

Excellent series ending

I have completely enjoyed this series by Nikki Ash. We didn't see as much of the past characters, but the focus on Gage and Sadie was perfection. Their stories are heartbreaking. Completely heartbreaking. I cried. My emotions ran high. I think this was my favorite of them all, but it's truly hard to choose just one. I'll be listening to this series again.

Gregory Salinas and Kelsey Navarro are favorite narrators of mine. Their performances were perfection. This audiobook rolled like a movie in my head.

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Bleeding Chaos!

"Bleeding Chaos" is the fourth story in the "Love and Lyrics" stories about the musicians of Raging Chaos. This can be read as a stand alone story but there are connected characters and events. To get the most out of this story I would read the others before this one. The story is on the dark side and contains some potential triggers. This one is about the drummer of the group, Gage, and Sadie, who crashed into his life. Gage is dealing with guilt and pain from his past. He is coping through drugs and alcohol, so not really dealing with the tragedy. When Sadie and Gage meet she is dealing with her own tragedy and pain. They end up in bed together until Gage pushes her away. When she finds out she is pregnant Gage is in a really bad place in his life. She decides to not tell him because of how bad off he is. When he realizes he has a daughter things change. This is an emotional one and I enjoyed every bit of this story. The narrators did a good job bringing the characters and story to life. I like how these two come about and grow in love.

heartbreaking and beutiful

The last book of the series was the best of them. the angst, the heartache, the guilt. the pain was like a living thing.
it's so beautifully written, and the narrators did a wonderful and sensitive job.
I received a free review copy of this book and am voluntarily leaving a review.

Beautiful Story.

I knew this one was going to be emotional but I didn't think it be right at the beginning. This is Gage and Sadie's story. This can be read or listened to as a stand alone but I recommend doing it in order because you get the whole experience of all the characters. This one is a bit heavier than the others. Both characters are dealing with devastating losses and the narrators did an excellent job giving the characters a voice and portraying the emotions.