Hey y'all, welcome back to episode 72 of the Roots and Refuge Podcast.

After a much-needed break, I'm excited to reconnect. This summer, which I’ve come to call "The Crushing Summer," was both deeply challenging and transformative for our family and the homestead. With my eldest son graduating and heading off to college, I found myself grieving the end of his childhood and reflecting on how fast time goes by, especially as I realized my youngest will be in the same position in just nine short years. This sparked a full audit of our life and farm, leading us to ask ourselves "Why?" about everything we do.

The season also brought us face to face with significant loss on the farm. We had to put down two of our dairy cows, lost lambs during birth, and said goodbye to two elderly alpacas. The grief was overwhelming, and for a moment, I seriously questioned if I wanted to keep farming. I considered what life might be like with less — less stress, less demand. This was the turning point where I knew we needed to make changes, not just on the farm but in our lives.

After some deep reflection, we made the decision to downsize. We’ve reduced our dairy and beef operations and scaled back our gardens, keeping just what we need to enjoy rather than to preserve every last bit. Every system was reassessed with the goal of creating more time for our family. Though it's been hard to say goodbye to certain animals and plans, we’re finding peace in these choices, even reassessing our dream of building a house.

I’ve found a renewed passion for our current home, embracing this season of slowing down and focusing on what’s in front of me. I am completely at peace with today being enough and finding fulfillment in the everyday moments. This summer may have been crushing, but within it, I found clarity and growth. I hope that in sharing this story, you find seeds of your own to nurture. You’re not alone. 🌱

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