Episodes

  • 6.5 — Closure + 2 of Pentacles

    6.5 — Closure + 2 of Pentacles
    Oct 28 2024
    There’s a lot of modern talk about how closure is only truly found within. And TBH? I disagree. I think this is a reaction to a relational culture that’s still pretty averse to deep & honest closure conversations. I think we’ve grown so used to the lack of collaborative closure that we’ve convinced ourselves the need or desire is negligible. “I never get that, so I don’t need it anyway” might just soften the pain of having a consistently unmet need. But is it really true? In this episode, I explore what it means to find closure when we can't seem to get it from someone else — and how the grief of heartbreak and loss is more of a spiral than a straight line. I discuss the Two of Pentacles and its connection to balance & burden, and, as always, I unravel the lyrics of a song that capture the essence of this episode's energy. Show Notes: ⁠⁠Lilifer Tarot by Little Darkness⁠⁠⁠⁠Reclaim Oracle by Little Darkness⁠⁠⁠"Promise" by Ben Howard⁠ (channeled song)My article for The Astrophile: ⁠"On Longing"⁠ ⁠⁠Feeling Loudly Podcast Spotify Playlist⁠⁠⁠⁠“Moonshine” by Prigida⁠⁠ (Intro & Outro Music) My Links: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠View all my links in one place⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Become a patron⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ for exclusive content⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Book a reading⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ (code POD10 for 10% off)⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Buy me a coffee⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ to show your supportFollow me on ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠TikTok⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ & ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠YouTube⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Join the ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Feeling Loudly Discord server⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Sign up for ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠The Moonletter⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ (my newsletter)Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠The Astrophile Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Subscribe to the ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Feeling Loudly Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Visit my website⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ for more --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/feelingloudly/support
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    56 mins
  • 6.4 — Injustice + Lust + 8 of Cups

    6.4 — Injustice + Lust + 8 of Cups
    Oct 1 2024
    As we approach our South Node Solar Eclipse in Libra on October 2, relationships are center stage, and so are relational dynamics. What or who are you ready to leave behind in this nodal era? Our tarot card, the Eight of Cups, is inviting us to get honest. And our oracle cards, Injustice and Lust, are pointing us toward the freedom and passion on the other side of honesty. When we recognize the imbalance and inauthenticity in our connections, we can choose to stay in denial, to willfully shift that dynamic (when possible), or to leave it behind entirely. Surrendering to the truth isn’t easy, but it is life-changing. And this season promises to bring necessary change that opens us up to delicious new possibilities. Show Notes: Lilifer Tarot by Little DarknessReclaim Oracle by Little DarknessDiana (You Don’t Even Know) by Fred again… (channeled song)Feeling Loudly Podcast Spotify Playlist“Moonshine” by Prigida (Intro & Outro Music) My Links: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠View all my links in one place⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Become a patron⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ for exclusive content⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Book a reading⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ (code POD10 for 10% off)⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Buy me a coffee⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ to show your supportFollow me on ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠TikTok⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ & ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠YouTube⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Join the ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Feeling Loudly Discord server⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Sign up for ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠The Moonletter⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ (my newsletter)Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠The Astrophile Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Subscribe to the ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Feeling Loudly Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Visit my website⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ for more --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/feelingloudly/support
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    56 mins
  • 6.3 — Appreciation + The Magician

    6.3 — Appreciation + The Magician
    Sep 16 2024
    The Magician is a card of manifestation, creativity, and willpower. But what does that mean outside the lens of patriarchy and capitalism, which teach us to over-power and exploit? In this episode, I explore Magician work through the lens of working with rather than working on — collaborating rather than dominating. Whether we’re embarking on a creative process, a magical working, or a connection with another being, appreciating their unique gifts and nature is essential if we want to build a healthy, cooperative, generative relationship. Understanding how our tools, ingredients, and collaborators operate is key. And understanding our own nature and power is too. In this way, Magician work becomes a conversation with elements, ingredients, creatures, and environments, and a divine process that allows us all to express our truth and realize our potential. Show Notes: ⁠Lilifer Tarot by Little Darkness⁠⁠Reclaim Oracle by Little Darkness⁠⁠“Lush” by Four Tet (channeled song)⁠⁠Feeling Loudly Podcast Spotify Playlist⁠⁠“Moonshine” by Prigida⁠ (Intro & Outro Music) My Links: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠View all my links in one place⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Become a patron⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ for exclusive content⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Book a reading⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ (code POD10 for 10% off)⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Buy me a coffee⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ to show your supportFollow me on ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠TikTok⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ & ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠YouTube⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Join the ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Feeling Loudly Discord server⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Sign up for ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠The Moonletter⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ (my newsletter)Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠The Astrophile Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Subscribe to the ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Feeling Loudly Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Visit my website⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ for more --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/feelingloudly/support
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    41 mins
  • 6.2 — Power + 9 of Wands

    6.2 — Power + 9 of Wands
    Sep 1 2024
    What does it mean to carry power responsibly? And what does grounded power look like? In this episode, I explore the 9 of Wands and its relationship to struggle. A card of resilience, grit, determination, and courage, this card evokes the image of the warrior — a traditional depiction of power. It’s visceral and intense. But like fire itself, power can become dangerous and contagious when unchecked, burning out of control and leaving a trail of destruction in its wake. Ethically wielding power means rooting in compassion and grounding ourselves. It’s like having water nearby, and constructing a fire pit out of rocks to contain the flames before we strike the match. Those measures allow us to burn safely, and to harness the creative power seeded our sacred rage. Show Notes: ⁠Lilifer Tarot by Little Darkness⁠⁠Reclaim Oracle by Little Darkness⁠⁠“CLOUDS” by Park Hye Jin & Nosaj Thing⁠ (Channeled Song)⁠Feeling Loudly Podcast Spotify Playlist⁠⁠“Moonshine” by Prigida⁠ (Intro & Outro Music) My Links: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠View all my links in one place⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Become a patron⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ for exclusive content⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Book a reading⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ (code POD10 for 10% off)⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Buy me a coffee⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ to show your supportFollow me on ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠TikTok⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ & ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠YouTube⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Join the ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Feeling Loudly Discord server⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Sign up for ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠The Moonletter⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ (my newsletter)Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠The Astrophile Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Subscribe to the ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Feeling Loudly Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Visit my website⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ for more --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/feelingloudly/support
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    51 mins
  • 6.1 — Insecurity + Temperance

    6.1 — Insecurity + Temperance
    Aug 18 2024

    Welcome to Season Six. In our first episode, I explore the relationship between (in)security and Temperance — a Major Arcana card that teaches us about moderation, patience, and healing.

    When our foundation is rocked or we’re feeling unsteady, it’s natural to seek an escape from our pain. But sometimes short-term gratification pushes us further into the abyss. We can bypass our emotions temporarily, but not forever. Eventually they’ll come knocking.

    Staying present with tough emotions helps us increase our capacity for discomfort and pleasure. It gives us greater access our full range of emotion. It’s not necessarily fun work, but it’s life-changing. By pausing and getting present, we can interrupt the cycle of escapism and find new, more empowering ways to soothe our fears.


    Show Notes:

    • ⁠Lilifer Tarot by Little Darkness⁠
    • ⁠Reclaim Oracle by Little Darkness⁠
    • ⁠“Solstice” by Yeek⁠ (Channeled Song)
    • ⁠“Moonshine” by Prigida⁠ (Intro & Outro Music)


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    57 mins
  • 5.22 — Closure

    5.22 — Closure
    Jun 23 2024
    Welcome to the final episode of Season 5. I’ll be taking a monthlong break from the podcast to chill out and process all the *~feels~* we explored in this season. You can find me on Patreon, Discord, and Instagram, and sign up for my newsletter, if you want to keep in touch in the meantime. This week, appropriately, our card is Closure, complemented by the 8 of Swords. I talk about how recognizing our agency and taking accountability is often a key step in achieving closure. And I share a couple personal stories about navigating the confusion and overwhelm of heartbreak and finding closure when you don’t have all the answers you desire. My Links: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠View all my links in one place⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Become a patron⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ for exclusive content⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Book a reading⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ (code POD10 for 10% off)⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Buy me a coffee⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ to show your supportFollow me on ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠TikTok⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ & ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠YouTube⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Join the ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Feeling Loudly Discord server⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Sign up for ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠The Moonletter⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ (my newsletter)Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠The Astrophile Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Subscribe to the ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Feeling Loudly Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Visit my website⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ for more Show Notes ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Reclaim Oracle by Little Darkness⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Lilifer Tarot by Little Darkness⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠"Beach Baby" by Bon Iver⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠S5 Spotify playlist⁠⁠ --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/feelingloudly/support
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    39 mins
  • 5.21 — Trust + 7 of Pentacles

    5.21 — Trust + 7 of Pentacles
    Jun 19 2024
    This week’s tarot card, the 7 of Pentacles, brings us a message about trust, patience, and living in harmony with our environment. A Saturn in Taurus card, its medicine is slow and deliberate. It calls on us to ground our intentions in the 3D and to place faith in ourselves and the unseen forces that support us in bringing our dreams into reality. In this episode, I talk about the magic of the mundane and the power of simple ritual. Note: The first half of this episode was really quiet because my microphone was a whole foot from my facing and pointing in the wrong direction. 😆 Maybe that’s a message unto itself about getting grounded and taking care of the basics — lol. Enjoy. My Links: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠View all my links in one place⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Become a patron⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ for exclusive content⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Book a reading⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ (code POD10 for 10% off)⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Buy me a coffee⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ to show your supportFollow me on ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠TikTok⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ & ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠YouTube⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Join the ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Feeling Loudly Discord server⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Sign up for ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠The Moonletter⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ (my newsletter)Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠The Astrophile Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Subscribe to the ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Feeling Loudly Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Visit my website⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ for more Show Notes ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Reclaim Oracle by Little Darkness⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Lilifer Tarot by Little Darkness⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠"The Bay" by Metronomy⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠S5 Spotify playlist --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/feelingloudly/support
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    30 mins
  • 5.20 — Betrayal

    5.20 — Betrayal
    Jun 15 2024
    This week’s feel is betrayal, complemented by The Tower. What a vibe, eh? 💀 I thought this week’s episode might be lighter but I thought wrong!! I explored all sorts of betrayals in this episode and talked about how we often (not always) see and feel little b betrayals on the way to capital B betrayals in relationships. And, often, betrayal is a mechanism that frees us or someone we love from a connection that’s run its course — or an exit strategy that helps us avoid intimacy. P.S. Here's the Thom Yorke quote I mentioned but forgot to read aloud in the episode: "I grew up under Thatcher. I grew up believing that I was fundamentally powerless. Then gradually over the years it occurred to me that this was actually a very convenient myth for the state." My Links: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠View all my links in one place⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Become a patron⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ for exclusive content⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Book a reading⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ (code POD10 for 10% off)⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Buy me a coffee⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ to show your supportFollow me on ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠TikTok⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ & ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠YouTube⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Join the ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Feeling Loudly Discord server⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Sign up for ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠The Moonletter⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ (my newsletter)Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠The Astrophile Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Subscribe to the ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Feeling Loudly Substack⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Visit my website⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ for more Show Notes ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Reclaim Oracle by Little Darkness⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Lilifer Tarot by Little Darkness⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠"Nude" by Radiohead⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠S5 Spotify playlist⁠⁠ --- Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/feelingloudly/support
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    46 mins