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Becca Ballenger
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If I were dead, I wouldn't be able to see. If I were dead, I wouldn't be able to feel. If I were dead, he'd never raise his hand to me again. If I were dead, his words wouldn't cut as deep as they do. If I were dead, I'd be beautiful and I wouldn't be so...ugly.
I'm not dead...but I wish I was.
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Read the book first, then had to get the audible v
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Incredible!! Must Read!
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Great Read
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this poor girl..her hole life.
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It jumps right in, so hold on to your seats. I cant believe how good this book is. I haven't heard a book this good for a long time, and I listen to about 3 books a week.
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Becca did an amazing job, and I would happily listen to her again.
I was given this free review copy audiobook at my request and have voluntarily left this review.
wholly cow! its a great book!
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No words
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intense
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I loved this book
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The story continues showing how she escapes her abuse and overcomes the horrors she survived. Very interesting and held my attention.
Excellent narrator and author.
5 Star ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
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