The Impossible Knife of Memory

By: Laurie Halse Anderson

Narrated by: Julia Whelan, Luke Daniels

Despite my best intentions, I was beginning to understand how my dad saw the world. The shadows haunting every living thing. The secrets inside the lies wrapped in bullshit. Even Gracie’s box of pills was beginning to make sense.

For the past five years, Hayley Kincain and her father, Andy, have been on the road, trying to outrun the memories that haunt them both. They moved back to Andy’s hometown to try a “normal” life, but the horrors he saw in the war threaten to destroy their lives. Hayley watches, helpless, as her father turns to drugs and alcohol to silence his demons. And then her own past creeps up, and everything falls apart.

How do you keep your father alive when death is stalking him? What are you supposed to do when your parent stops acting like an adult? And what happens if a sweet guy who can make you laugh barges his way into your world and for the first time, you find yourself thinking about the future?

Timely, compelling, surprising — this is Laurie Halse Anderson at her finest.

©2014 Laurie Halse Anderson (P)2013 Brilliance Audio, all rights reserved.

Critic reviews

"Julia Whelan's expert performance brings out the complexity of Hayley's character, picking up on her vulnerability and defensive toughness, mixing both with a good dose of teen attitude. Whelan's solid characterizations, varied cadence, and expressive reading strengthen the listener's connection to this emotionally intense story. Narrator Luke Daniels delivers the few sections told from Andy's point of view. His mature voice makes a believable contrast with Whelan's, and he captures Andy's tortured flashbacks and overwhelming feelings of survivor guilt. An unforgettable audiobook for older teens and adults." ( AudioFile)

It was a surprise - and I LOVE this author

This book was quite a surprise. It was amazing how deep things ran yet the narrator was still 17 in many ways. The reader, Julia Whelan, did a GREAT job. I had a bit of a problem with the seemingly random interruptions by Haley's father (read by Luke Daniels). Here and there they added to the overall story overall but they didn't really connect much. Even if he had told these stories to Haley, they didn't offer any real insight into Andy (they were too brief for that) and the idea that he was messed up due to a TBI AND PTSD came across quite well without his interjections. Ms Anderson is always great for a journey into a mind and she once again comes away with top marks for her work.

The panic in the character’s vioces

The excerpts from the dad really rude the story together made the story come together

All the Feelings

LHA writes in a way that makes you feel everything that is going on with the characters. You feel like you are right in the thick of it with them. And amazingly, JW transports you into the story with her voice. She brings the story alive; has a wonderful voice and style. You never feel like she is reading the book, just that she is telling the author's story as her own.

An Instant Favorite

Any additional comments?

This my first Laurie Halse Anderson book, but it won't be my last!

This book is advertised with an emphasis on its darker aspects and the fact that it's an "issue book," and indeed it was very intense and raw in parts. This was complemented with stunningly poetic writing - it hit hard.

However, I was very pleasantly surprised to find that it also had a perfect balance of lighter aspects - a smart though imperfect heroine (best kind) and a fantastic but realistic love interest/relationship. These things in combination with the moments of poetry and moments of intensity and - oh yeah - the fact that I was so ADDICTED to this book that I practically read it in one sitting - make it an instant favorite and an experience I will not forget.

I was very pleased by the narrator, her voices and intonation were subtle but spot on.

character development

The author walks you through a world tucked behind masks of "it's okay" to show you how it's not. She does this without breaking the reader's heart, but instead opening it. I learned compassion in the face of gaping hopelessness and witnessed strength in situations that mirror a reality I've never had to live through.

Powerful and Riveting

The Impossible Knife of Memory is about PTSD and how it effects the sufferer and those around them. Laurie Halse Anderson is never one to shy away from tough subject matters, and tackles PTSD with honesty and emotion. This issue is realistic and topical, and this edgy story is sure to resonate with many readers.

Hayley and her father Andy have never put down roots – Andy is a truck driver who home-schooled Hayley on the road. But now Andy thinks it’s time to settle in to his hometown so Hayley can attend high school. Andy is a war veteran with severe PTSD from his time serving in Iraq. Hayley grew up without a mom and has had to in many ways be the parent to her dad. He has daily struggles, and his flashback triggers bring on alcohol and drug abuse, and Hayley has to stay on top of him to take care of his basic needs.

Considering that Hayley has far more adult responsibilities than her peers, it’s hard for her to relate to the carefree students (she calls them zombies) at school. She doesn’t have the luxury of planning for college like the other students – who will look after her dad?

We get a glimpse of Andy’s state of mind through brief chapters in his POV. It’s clear he is in a troubled state of mind, but he chooses to self-medicate to cope rather than accept the medical and counseling help he needs.

Hayley has two non-zombie friends, her neighbor Gracie, and Finn, a nice guy at school who sees through to the real Hayley. Finn surprises Hayley by having demons of his own, and that helps to strengthen their bond.

Another complicated relationship is with Hayley’s sort-of stepmother Trish, who broke Hayley’s heart by walking out on the family. Now that she’s back in the picture, can Hayley forgive her and accept her help?

Andy and Hayley have a lot of healing to do and I wanted them to get the support they needed. Hayley is smart and funny and could have a bright future but she is in this holding pattern. She loves her dad dearly but doesn’t know how to help him at this point. Can she dare to hope for something more for her future- could she walk away?

Julia Whelan performs the nine-hour audiobook, with Luke Daniels performing Andy’s chapters. I’ve listened to Julia Whelan many times, and she’s good at inhabiting her characters. She performs Laurie Halse Andersons’ lyrical words with care and helps the story shine. And Luke Daniels illustrates Andy’s tortured state of mind with his delivery. This is a powerful story made more so by the riveting audio performance.

Laurie Halse Anderson has still got it, and her latest heavy-hitter doesn’t disappoint. Strong voice, character development, and story – you’re missing out if you’re not reading her books.

eh...alright

stuck through till the end but the story line could have been way better written. it was a great story but the actual back stories were drawn out, boring and not worth 6 hours of my time. but all in all i enjoyed listening to a book

Excellent narration speeds up a slow story

Haley is back in school for her senior year after five years on the road with her father, Andy. Now they're back in her grandmother's old house. While Hayley struggles at school with math and authority, her father is wrestling demons from his years as a captain in the army. He drinks, use drugs, has violent outbursts and never ending nightmares. He suffers from PTSD and Hayley has become his caretaker and emotional support. But Andy is deteriorating, threatening Hayley's new friendships, her love interest, and maybe even their lives.
Anderson has written another winner, narrated by Hayley's strong voice. Hayley is, at first, a difficult character to embrace. She's angry, rebellious, and unfriendly cloaked in a protective facade to keep from being hurt again. She's very flawed, but slowly allows others into her difficult world. Any teenager who's ever had to take care of an alcoholic or mentally ill parent will find Hayley realistic and believable, but teens who haven't had similar experience will also get a glimpse of someone who appears different, for good reason, and realize we never know what someone else is actually dealing with. I recommend this book for teens and adults who like realistic YA fiction.

Excellent performance, story a little long

This book deals with some very difficult topics. Everyone won't be able to relate, but everyone needs to be exposed so they can try to understand.

The Impossible Knife of Memory

What did you like best about The Impossible Knife of Memory? What did you like least?

I really enjoyed the narration. The narrator did a really good job of voicing each character and the pacing was great.

What was most disappointing about Laurie Halse Anderson’s story?

I have read Laurie Halse Anderson's "Speak" and was impressed by that story. I assumed that this would also impress me. It did not. Hayley is a self-centered brat who only really thinks about herself. She doesn't develop as a character and remains a whiny teenager who has no sympathy for really anyone, even, I dare say, her own father.

Was The Impossible Knife of Memory worth the listening time?

The narration: Yes The story: No