Sins of Our Mothers: Skeletons in Our Closets

By: Shana K. Dines

Narrated by: Dani George

I nestled in a tomb for a womb. I was trapped, held captive, listless, apathetic, even before I was born. That's how it felt to be conceived out of deceit, lust, and sexual abuse. I walked around for quite awhile as a child and as an adult, feeling repulsive, loathsome, like a disease. I was spawned in darkness, my mother’s secret, vile sin. I was my mother's entrapment. She was obliviously unaware that she could get pregnant, that she could get caught. My mother was numb, robotic, trying to figure out how to get out of an impossible situation.

Slivers of ice pierced my little soul. It was impossible to feel safe knowing she wanted to get rid of me, a parasite, feeding off her body. How could she convince her husband that he was the father of her baby? Her sexual addiction and perversion created this horrible predicament. She was pregnant by her 15-year-old lover, who was fatherless, with a mother that was incapable of taking care of her children, living in poverty and despair. She had to convince her husband that this child from the border of Mexico needed a chance to have a good life without letting him know that he would be taking this teenage boy to Indiana who was the father to his wife’s baby.

My mother was bipolar, mentally ill, a sociopath that not only got pregnant by my 15-year-old father but went on to abuse me in every way imaginable. This is my story. People have a hard time believing that women, especially mothers who are supposed to protect their children, can be molesters and pedophiles, but my mother was one. I am not only telling my story for my own recovery, exposing the sins of the mothers in our family, but to help others to see that if this happened to them, they are not alone, and they can recover and have healthy, reasonably happy lives and help others in their journeys to wholeness.

©2018 Shana Dines (P)2019 Shana Dines

Great book, Narrator needs some work

After every sense you can hear the narrator take a quick deep breath. It’s extremely noticeable.

good book! good narration!

I have listened to this book twice now! I love the way this story is told!

Sad but well said

It’s so sad what she went through but I’m so happy she got out what she needed to for healing

very sad bit a well told story

the Narrator was very good, keep my attention, very easy to listen to. would recommend this book

Difficult to hear

Hard to hear these event and I imagine hard to tell. Overall it held my attention and even now I have questions. Awful truth.

Great book

Horrifying events, but well written. I am not a fan of religion, but it wasn’t pushed, so it worked out.

Wow what a story!

This will be at the top of my list for a long time. Absolutely Heartbreaking.

Hard story to tell

This must have been a very hard autobiography for her to write. It does, however, sound like the author has recovered as well as could be expected. I almost didn't buy this book because of people saying things like "don't bother". That insensitive person has, obviously, never been abused, nor has he/she ever known anyone who was abused and can thank God for that. I do recommend this book. I do think it was well written and performed.

Very moving personal story.

Thank you to the author for sharing such a raw, deeply personal history. Trauma like that is hard to overcome.

Thank you for sharing your story

A horrible truth that one lives. They lived it.. but we can at least listen to it .
Inspires to tell your truth.
We all have a story