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It Gets Better . . . Except When It Gets Worse
- And Other Unsolicited Truths I Wish Someone Had Told Me
- Narrated by: Nicole Maines
- Length: 5 hrs and 50 mins
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Publisher's summary
The irreverent and candid coming-of-age memoir of Nicole Maines, trailblazing trans actress, activist—and sometimes someone who’s just existing, which is actually pretty hard!
Nicole Maines knows a little something about “happily ever after”—not just because she’s a self-professed expert in the Disney princess canon, but because she’s lived it. After coming out at an early age, her family had not only to educate themselves, but also those around them as they fought and won a landmark court case in the state of Maine before she graduated high school. She made it into college, got the guy, and finally had The Surgery™. She achieved her lifelong goal of becoming an actress when she landed a major role in the CW’s Supergirl, playing television’s very first live-action transgender superhero.
Cue sappy music and sunsets, because we’ve got ourselves a happy ending, right?
Ha! As if.
For the first time, in her own words, Nicole tells the story of her journey from childhood in rural Maine to the spotlights of Hollywood, sharing the lessons she’s learned along the way. With clever wit and unflinching honesty, she tackles some of the most insidious messaging absorbed by queer kids and all young women, from the idea that any one thing can (or should) ever really “fix” you, to wondering what’s wrong with you when things don’t always feel better, and reminding us that, sometimes, a happy ending is only the beginning of the story.
Critic reviews
“[Nicole Maines’s] singular voice powers the book; she is open and humorous and a bit sly. . . . This is the memoir of a still young and confident woman, with more accomplishments yet to come.”—Kirkus Reviews
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- Abigail Boen
- 11-07-24
Navigating Dysphoria and Healing: Nicole's Transgender Journey with heart and humor.
A relatable narrative of growing up as a trans girl, vividly capturing the early childhood struggles with dysphoria. I deeply resonate with the journey toward gender-affirming surgery—though I was fortunate to avoid complications, I vividly recall the long, painful healing process and the emotional rollercoaster post-op. My heartfelt thanks to Nicole for sharing her deeply personal story in such a visceral, humorous, and entertaining manner. Thank you, Nicole ❤️
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