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- My Journey Through Abuse and the Holdeman Mennonites
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- Length: 8 hrs and 50 mins
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The Holdeman's were religious exempt from education beyond the eighth grade, and I was beat for begging to go to a high school.
As a minor, I had to kiss approximately 200 different people on the lips, some of whom were complete strangers, for the sake of something called The Holy Kiss; only it didn't feel holy.
Ahaz determined to break my independent, inquisitive nature through severe beatings and worse, including deadbolting me within my bedroom and nailing my windows shut.
Multiple Holdeman Mennonites were aware of what was being done to me, yet no one reported it. Instead, I was made out to be mentally ill; a liar.
After years of suffering through emotional, physical, physiological and sexual abuse, how could I even survive?
No one could hear me then... will YOU hear me now?
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- By Vicke on 12-25-21
By: Frances Reilly
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Memoirs of an Invisible Child
- By: Kelly Walk Hines
- Narrated by: Coleen Marlo
- Length: 5 hrs and 49 mins
- Unabridged
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At the young age of three, while I was at school, my mother was murdered by her abusive new boyfriend. What would happen to her five unintentionally abandoned children? The heartbreak of the devastating loss of my mother was just the beginning of a series of tragic events that shaped my childhood. Lost in the chaos of abuse, I was the unseen collateral damage of domestic violence. I was forced to take on the role of the invisible child for self-preservation. I figured you can't hurt what you can't see.
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Her strength even during the hardest times
- By N.Womack on 04-05-24
By: Kelly Walk Hines
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Stella's Story
- Thrown Away Children, Book 1
- By: Louise Allen
- Narrated by: Melanie Crawley
- Length: 8 hrs
- Unabridged
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Named after the lager that christened her at birth, Stella's life is characterised instability and neglect. Her teenage mother abandons her in the first few weeks of her life, and left in the 'care' of her father, she ends up lying deserted in a house with no food, no water, no clothes and no warmth. She eventually lands in the care of foster carer Louise, who is determined to change her life for the better.
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The care and love for children
- By jennifer white on 07-01-24
By: Louise Allen
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Such Good Boys
- The True Story of a Mother, Two Sons and a Horrifying Murder
- By: Tina Dirmann
- Narrated by: Gabra Zackman
- Length: 6 hrs and 5 mins
- Unabridged
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Raised in the suburb of Riverside, California, 20-year-old college student Jason Bautista endured for years his emotionally disturbed mother's verbal and psychological abuse. She even locked him out of the house, tied him up with electrical cord, and on one occasion, gave him a beating that sent him to the emergency room. On the night of January 14, 2003, Jason strangled his mother. To keep authorities from identifying her body, he chopped off her head and hands, an idea he claimed he got from watching an episode of the hit TV series The Sopranos.
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Could have been much more
- By Shopsfromeverywhere on 10-25-16
By: Tina Dirmann
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Momma Said Write a Book About It
- Memoirs of a Scapegoat
- By: Victoria S. Hardy
- Narrated by: Virtual Voice
- Length: 21 hrs and 37 mins
- Unabridged
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When you’re a scapegoat in an abusive household, the scapegoating doesn’t end when you turn 18. Author Dani Donnelly is just now finding this out at age 50, and she’s about to show the world through her memoirs how pervasively damaging an abusive home can be. Her lifelong narcissistic abuser, however, is taking unthinkable steps to put a halt to Dani’s plan. This novel is a chilling tale of survival.
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great book, wish it had a real voice behind it
- By Jayme Paul on 02-02-24
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Tressa
- The 12-Year-Old Mum
- By: Tressa Middleton
- Narrated by: Ruth Urquhart
- Length: 6 hrs and 46 mins
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Tressa Middleton made UK history when she became Britain's youngest mum in 2006 aged just 12 years and eight months. Her case provoked shock and outrage - but the truth behind the headlines was far sadder than anyone could ever have imagined. Born into a life of poverty and neglect, Tressa was forced to grow up fast when was she taken into care at just four years old. She was returned to her mother's chaotic world, but by the age of seven, she was being abused by her own brother and at 11 years old she fell pregnant with his child. For years she kept his dark secret in an attempt to hold her family together until the truth threatened to destroy her completely.
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truly amazing such a beautiful n strong Young wome
- By kelly on 12-22-18
By: Tressa Middleton
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Hidden in the Dark
- Every Family Has Secrets - Some Are Worth Dying For
- By: RaShell Lashbrook
- Narrated by: Virtual Voice
- Length: 9 hrs
- Unabridged
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"This novel is not for the faint of heart, but it rewards the brave with a riveting tale that grips deeply." DJ Moore A dark, psychological thriller that is sure to keep you up well past your bedtime After enduring a lifetime of abuse at the hands of the man that vowed to cherish her, Genny Carter knows only the role of the victim. More focused on avoiding punishment than the wellbeing of her three daughters, she ignored the terror inflicted on them by their father during their childhood. She kept his secrets. Now, in her sixties, Genny has had enough. She needs her daughters to help her ...
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Virtual Voice
- By Generic Name on 03-28-24
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The Lost Years
- Surviving a Mother and Daughter's Worst Nightmare
- By: Kristina Wandzilak, Constance Curry
- Narrated by: Hillary Huber, Donna Postel
- Length: 7 hrs and 59 mins
- Unabridged
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Kristina, the second of four children, begins by telling how a little sip of vodka sipped secretly at a party her parents were giving started her on a pathway to addiction. In that instant, alcohol became her pathway to comfort. Over the next eight years, she sank further into addiction, moving on to cocaine and methamphetamines. In telling her story, she gives a brutally honest description of her addiction and crimes.
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well-written, accessible, with odd Narrator Choice
- By Daryl on 08-16-17
By: Kristina Wandzilak, and others
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Playing Dead
- A Memoir of Terror and Survival
- By: Monique Faison Ross, Gary M. Krebs
- Narrated by: Janina Edwards
- Length: 6 hrs and 23 mins
- Unabridged
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Monique, the daughter of San Diego Chargers football great Earl Faison, married her high school sweetheart soon after she discovered she was pregnant with his child. Her relationship with Chris was shaky from the start, but turned tumultuous as he became verbally and physically abusive. When she could no longer put up with the abuse, she left him with their children. That was when the stalking and genuine threats began. Nothing stopped him - not protection injunctions, police warnings, or even arrests. One fateful Monday morning, Chris kidnapped Monique....
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God Kept Her Through it All
- By Ovonda D Walker on 01-15-20
By: Monique Faison Ross, and others
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Lost and Found
- The True Story of Jaycee Lee Dugard and the Abduction That Shocked the World
- By: John Glatt
- Narrated by: Randye Kaye
- Length: 10 hrs and 35 mins
- Unabridged
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In 1991, eleven-year-old Jaycee Lee Dugard was kidnapped on her morning walk to the school bus. But despite her family's tireless efforts, Jaycee's disappearance remained a mystery. Then, in August 2009, a registered sex offender named Phillip Garrido appeared on the University of California, Berkeley, campus alongside two young women whose unusual behavior sparked concern among campus officials and law enforcement. That visit would pave the way for a shocking discovery: That Garrido was Jaycee Lee Dugard's kidnapper.
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Narrator should skip around on her own time!
- By Laura on 08-13-14
By: John Glatt
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Beneath the Skin
- By: Kyla Stone
- Narrated by: Caitlin Kelly
- Length: 12 hrs and 52 mins
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For 18-year-old Sidney Shaw, life pretty much sucks. Her mom's a drunk. Her dad's worse. At school, she's bullied by her ex-best friend. And cutting no longer brings the relief she craves. When Sidney is forced into group counseling, she meets perfect, popular Arianna, the type of girl who grieves over a broken nail. But Arianna has secrets of her own. She might prove herself a friend - if Sidney can let her guard down. Then, there's Lucas, the sweet and funny new guy who sees straight through her tough, snarky facade.
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kyla Stone's most powerful work
- By Doug Cass on 03-03-21
By: Kyla Stone
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Where Children Run
- By: Karen Emilson
- Narrated by: Elizabeth Wiley
- Length: 16 hrs and 18 mins
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Twins David and Dennis Pischke's lives change forever when their father dies and a man damaged by the war arrives at their farm near the isolated town of Moosehorn, Manitoba. Boleslaw Domko quickly works his way into their lives and their mother's bed. Where Children Run opens with one of their earliest memories - the day Domko throws their infant stepsister against the wall. In this firsthand account, the twins recall years of neglect, starvation, and enslavement; horrific beatings and candlelit nights spent in the nearby St. Thomas Lutheran Church.
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A Reader's Comments
- By Kindle Customer on 02-10-20
By: Karen Emilson
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- Eltanin
- 04-16-24
An unbreakable spirit.
Hannah wrote a very difficult to read telling of the physical, mental, emotional, and sexual abuse she endured through her childhood and adolescent years. I had to pause the audio book several times to take breaks, sometimes for a day or more.
I’ve read some of the other reviews on the print version complaining of the grammatical and continuity errors in this memoir, but I see it as evidence of the story’s validity. It was structured as if it were written by someone with a minimal 8th grade cult education. A limited understanding of the lexicon reflects that of someone raised in a community with an isolated dialect, such as the Holdeman Mennonites.
The continuity errors (of which I admit there were many. For example: she described a hope chest and it’s purpose for what seemed like a half-dozen times) are exactly what you would expect from someone attempting to record horrid and terrible memories that are being dredged up from suppression and relived. The re-traumatizing would cause anyone to have to stop writing for extended periods between chapters, and forget they had already described a particular subject. This isn’t a story written for entertainment. This is a damaged human being sharing the worst and most shameful moments of her life, shouting, “this happened to me! Is there anyone who will listen and care?!”
I don’t understand how anyone can be so heartless as to read this book and not have enough empathy to be both heartbroken and proud of Hannah for the battles she has survived. However, the monsters and devils contained within this narrative are evidence of the contrary.
Hannah is a warrior. The evidence is shown in her bravery to publish this memoir.
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- Anonymous User
- 05-22-24
That mother
The true monster in this book was the mother! She knew everything that was happening and turning a blind eye doesn’t mean she didn’t know. To actually leave that man and go back again and again knowing her child was being raped and beaten is inexcusable.
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- Amazon Customer
- 05-02-24
she survived!
I love her courage and strength all the while she was being beaten and raped, molested by her father.
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- David Clingan
- 04-14-24
Reader mid read too many words over and over.
Reader doesn’t sound natural and mis pronounced the same words wrong, over and over. Story is one of concern.
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