Well its about time we made into the second trimester!! This first one whopped my ass, I can't even lie about that. No doubt I am so excited to be pregnant and extremely blessed but it has been difficult on my body. I also had no idea cramping was considered normal ( if theres no blood)! Usually cramping is something super scary and means you're losing your baby so I was terrified. 

I am now in therapy which is great and I highly recommend it! It has changed my mindset on my pregnancy journey :) 

I am super curious why this even a subject to be honest.  I mention in this episode, I am unsure why other people who are not black felt so comfortable saying it, when I myself don't. This could be because I was so sheltered and was directed to watch "white" people. Be professional, don't wear your hair like this, people won't respect if you don't talk like them. Smh. My skin was black but I learned more about the white culture. 

We all have our opinions but this one is factual. I could care less what others do to their hair. That is your hair and scalp. But, when it comes to black culture, people love to duplicate it and in the same breathe degrade us. 

Also, I love my own people, but black business is not a trend. Trends come and go. If you're gonna support, support. Don't support just because you have a cop murder a black man and its the move. 

I will not support based of ethnicity. I will support based off how you speak to me, conduct business. 

Okay sooooooooo...... I have a special guest with me tonight. Melissa is family the blood or marriage license to signify it.

Melissa is a single girl in her early 20's and talks a lot about the dating scene. . We are complete opposites. I am talking day and midnight. Our differences is what brought us together. She is a Scorpio queen who could careless about what others think. ME, the Cancer that I am, I can care a lot about what others think( but we working that cuz fuck that negative vibe!

We are a powerful duo with energy that is unmatched! Please give a warm welcome to my fellow bad bitch Melissa!!!!! 

Why y'all in our business? Why does it matter what we do as a women? We are beautiful in our own way. Our bodies should NOT be up for discussion. There should not be a law against our own rights. We have been fighting for equal rights for centuries. We shouldn't have too. Abortion is our choice. Case closed. 

The weed had me trippen y'all! I had to take a step back and re-evaluate my life. I was spending $20 on 8ths and then found myself buying more expensive weed. It's okay to take a break, or a step break from something you once enjoyed.

I use to nanny kids because I thought that was my purpose on this earth. But since I took a break , I understood it was not my sole purpose but a great chapter to tap into for something greater. One of the best experiences in my life that shaped me for the greater.

I have NO idea what my purpose is in this world but I am tapping into who I am everyday. I may never know, but I do want to explore my options. 

**I DO NOT APPROVE OF SMOKING WEED AROUND CHILDREN. MARIJUANA IS A DRUG. IT MAY BE LEGAL IN SOME STATE BUT CHILDREN'S LUNGS ARE STILL FRAGILE. ** 

"It is okay to be alone." I hated being alone. Didn't matter who you were, I always wanted a friend. I have a hard time being an actual friend because I am the ride or die type. I am teaching myself to ride or die for myself. It is okay to be in your own space. Learn what you like, dislike and what you are willing to put up with. Friendships are relationships so you gotta chose wisely. Plus.. anyone else ever blacked out and caused a scene? Nah? Just me? Okay!