Grief, mourning, questions, loss... and faith in the midst of all these.

Realizing that as we worship, we worship from a place of victory changed my life, right side up.

This realization has the same application to even how we handle situations in life. One of the things that keeps servants in a state of docility, is awaiting a victorious moment for them to share a testimony, whether that testimony be about a personal struggle, a prayer they are awaiting to be answered, or a battle they are trusting God for.

It struck me that I always waited for the calm to return, for the victory bells to roll and the giants to be slain before I shared about God's incredible work in my life. However, realizing that as we worship and pray, we do so not to attain victory but rather from a place of victory, it challenged my theology. It is possible and actually right to speak to your giant about your God who never loses a battle and since the battle belongs to God, then we surely have victory guaranteed.

Yet I realised that I rarely speak from the angle of " I am here now and God is working something about my situation" but always wait for "I was there then and God did it." Maybe God allows us to go through circumstance, not just to help people when we make it out of the mud, but to also hold hands with the people in the murk at that particular time as us, to be the light within the dark spots.

I am sounds is a confession that can also serve as a testimony.