Episodes

  • 9: Introducing The Millennial Rewatcher

    9: Introducing The Millennial Rewatcher
    May 24 2023
    I'm starting a new podcast! 
    I’m a sucker for nostalgia, and anything that has even the smallest trace of nostalgia for me has become hard to consume for most of my adult life thus far. At 32, I discovered that I’d been living life as an undiagnosed Autistic and Inattentive ADD person. A little over a year later, I’ve been able to watch some of the things that I had created nostalgia bond with, a trauma bond of sorts that made it incredibly difficult to watch movies a grew up on and loved. TV shows that take me back to me early twenties, even high school. Its hard for me to explain the panic I used to feel, and still feel at times. I can’t pretend I’m cured of these intense connections that prevented me from rewatching my favorite moments in pop culture. But, as I am slowly able to heal some trauma and enjoy my favorite things again without having a panic attack, I’m experiencing them in a whole new way.

    Join me every other week as I rewatch pop culture, all grown up. 
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    3 mins
  • 8: How to Cry

    8: How to Cry
    Apr 14 2023
    In this mental dump, I talk about depression, PMDD, and how incredibly difficult parenting as a late-diagnosed Audhd can be. I'm constantly a wreck, but like I like to say, if we don't talk about it, nothing changes.

    Music recommendations-
     
    Artist
    The Drifters
    "Some kind of wonderful"

    Artist
    Sam Smith
    "How to cry"

    Artist
    Yonaka
    "Seize the power"
     
    Spotify Playlist- https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7oPWJ0r6o7n1MIOOiVYx5d?si=n_h8KdjhS1S327dSG0AtVA&nd=1

    Intro/Outro music: "Torin - Tubular Bells [Dark]" is under a Creative Commons license (CC BY-SA 3.0)
    Music promoted by BreakingCopyright:     http://bit.ly/2k0NUqM
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    19 mins
  • 7: Obsessively Opposed to the Typical

    7: Obsessively Opposed to the Typical
    Apr 2 2023
    Still sick, and if anyone is listening, I'm sure you are tired of me yapping about it, but I promise it is relevant to the experience of (some) AuDHD'rs life after a late diagnosis. It's an important conversation that we can't shy away from, even if it feels redundant at times.

    Music recommendations-
     
    Rose Colored Lenses and You by Miley Cyrus
     
    Spotify Playlist- https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7oPWJ0r6o7n1MIOOiVYx5d?si=n_h8KdjhS1S327dSG0AtVA&nd=1

    Intro/Outro music: "Torin - Tubular Bells [Dark]" is under a Creative Commons license (CC BY-SA 3.0)
    Music promoted by BreakingCopyright:     http://bit.ly/2k0NUqM
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    15 mins
  • 6: Burnout Express

    6: Burnout Express
    Mar 20 2023
    It took me a little longer to get this episode because the overstimulation among some other things had me laid out longer than I anticipated. But, that's ok, I knew I'd still end up mental dumping as soon as I was capable!

    Music recommendations-

    Tell it to my heart
    Artist Post Tense

    Tattoos
    Artist Renee Rapp

    i haunt ur dreams
    Artist hey, nothing

    Spotify Playlist- https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7oPWJ0r6o7n1MIOOiVYx5d?si=n_h8KdjhS1S327dSG0AtVA&nd=1

    Intro/Outro music: "Torin - Tubular Bells [Dark]" is under a Creative Commons license (CC BY-SA 3.0)
    Music promoted by BreakingCopyright:     http://bit.ly/2k0NUqM
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    27 mins
  • 5: 50 Kinds of Chaotic

    5: 50 Kinds of Chaotic
    Mar 7 2023
    ...or so I like to think I am when in all actuality I've met my burnout threshold and can't recognize that I have met or even breached burnout because it didn't take much to get there or I fall back into feelings of "I must be stupid, let know one know how dumb I am" that I've been tricked by the world and myself into believing was true for the past 33 years. Also, I didn't know I was in burnout mode until after I recorded this episode... #staystrongdivergentbesties

    Music recommendations-

    "Mess"
    Artist Noah Kahan

    "Plastic Doll- Ashnikko remix"
    Artists Lady Gaga, Ashnikko, Oscar Scheller

    "Calm Down"
    Artist Krewella

    Spotify Playlist- https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7oPWJ0r6o7n1MIOOiVYx5d?si=n_h8KdjhS1S327dSG0AtVA&nd=1

    Intro/Outro music: "Torin - Tubular Bells [Dark]" is under a Creative Commons license (CC BY-SA 3.0)
    Music promoted by BreakingCopyright:     http://bit.ly/2k0NUqM
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    23 mins
  • 4: Am I a Martian?

    4: Am I a Martian?
    Mar 5 2023
    The last few days I've been mad with anxiety... and tooth stuff. This one is a chaotic mind spill, but I've been teetering on the edge of all kinds of meltdowns and needed to talk it out a bit. That's what Mental Dump is for anyway, right? Check that box because bestie, yes it is.

    Music recommendations
    "Legacy"
    Artist Eminem

    "Up"
    Artist Annabel Lee

    Spotify Playlist- https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7oPWJ0r6o7n1MIOOiVYx5d?si=n_h8KdjhS1S327dSG0AtVA&nd=1

    Intro/Outro music: "Torin - Tubular Bells [Dark]" is under a Creative Commons license (CC BY-SA 3.0)
    Music promoted by BreakingCopyright:     http://bit.ly/2k0NUqM
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    16 mins
  • 3: Unmasking & Relationships (is really hard)

    3: Unmasking & Relationships (is really hard)
    Feb 27 2023
    I'm facing have to cut ties with another relationship after unmasking, ands this one is really getting to me. Help me talk it about before we listen to some brain hugging music.

    Song Recommendation One-
    "Get Outta my Heart"
    Artist Ava Max

    Song Recommendation Two-
    "Gypsy"
    Artist Lady Gaga

    Intro/Outro music: "Torin - Tubular Bells [Dark]" is under a Creative Commons license (CC BY-SA 3.0)
    Music promoted by BreakingCopyright:     http://bit.ly/2k0NUqM
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    17 mins
  • 2: Coping with Music

    2: Coping with Music
    Feb 25 2023
    Let’s talk about my main squeeze of a coping mechanism, music.

    Song recommendation one-
    “Best Friend”
    Artist Ashwarya

    Song recommendation two-
    “My Wave”
    Artist Sara James

    Intro/Outro music: "Torin - Tubular Bells [Dark]" is under a Creative Commons license (CC BY-SA 3.0)
    Music promoted by BreakingCopyright:     http://bit.ly/2k0NUqM
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    14 mins