Wherever I Wind Up

My Quest for Truth, Authenticity and the Perfect Knuckleball

By: R. A. Dickey, Wayne Coffey

Narrated by: Ben Hunter

The Glass Castle meets Ball Four as Mets knuckleballer R. A. Dickey weaves searing honesty and baseball insight in this memoir about his unlikely journey to the big leagues.

An English Lit major at the University of Tennessee, Dickey is as articulate and thoughtful as any professional athlete in any sport - and proves it page after page, as he provides fresh and honest insight into baseball and a career unlike any other. Fourteen years ago, Dickey was a heralded No. 1 draft choice of the Texas Rangers, only to have an $810,000 signing bonus, and his lifelong dream, ripped away by an X- ray - and the discovery that he did not have an ulna collateral ligament in his right elbow. Five years ago, he gave up a record six home runs in three innings to the Detroit Tigers - and was effectively consigned to the baseball scrap heap.

Sustained by his profound Christian faith, the love of his wife and children, and a relentless quest for self-awareness and authenticity, the immensely likable Dickey details his transformation from a reckless, risk-taking loner to a grounded, life-affirming big leaguer. He emerged as one of the premier pitchers in the National League in 2010-and the knuckleballing embodiment of the wonders that perseverance and human wisdom can produce. Dickey views his story as one of redemption. Readers will come to see it as something more - a uniquely American story of beating back demons, listening to your heart, and overcoming extraordinary odds.

©2012 eChristian (P)2012 eChristian

Marred (for me) by unfortunate performance issues

As many have already observed in reviews of both the audiobook and print versions of this work, R. A. Dickey has a compelling story to tell. It is a classic yet personal story of struggle and redemption, and it works equally well as a sports memoir, as a tale of perseverance triumphing over adversity, and as a story about the sustaining value of faith in modern life. "Wherever I Wind Up ..." (and, believe it or not, I just now noticed the pun in the title) is a well-told story, rich with detail, some of which must have been incredibly hard for the author to relive. I applaud him for baring so much of his soul to tell this story. It is a feel-good story in the end, but it passes through some pretty dark territory along the way, so when you do arrive at the end, the positive outlook you feel seems well earned and genuine.

So what's my problem?

I am one of those many New Yorkers who followed Mr. Dickey's rise as a member of the New York Mets, and am familiar with (at least) the baseball parts of his story because I've heard a good deal of it out of his own mouth. It turns out that, in addition to being a good and literate writer (along with Wayne Coffey, who I'm sure had a lot to do with putting a little professional polish on his words), it turns out that Robert Alan Dickey is also very well-spoken in person. He gives a good and thoughtful interview; he speaks thoughtfully and usually quite eloquently on any number of subjects. And I've seen him interviewed many times -- in the locker room after games, on national talk shows, in the documentary film that (in part) covers his life and craft; I even had an opportunity to meet him in person for a few minutes once.

This is great, but it also makes for quite a conundrum, I would imagine, for those who would produce an audio version of this book. Here we have an autobiography written by a reasonably well known person, whose voice and speaking style some of us have come to know pretty well, being read by a third party, Ben Hunter. I do not know Mr. Hunter and I'm sure he's quite professional, but anyone taking on a project like this starts with the deck stacked against him, simply because he is not R. A. Dickey. Here is a very personal story, being read to us in the first person, speaking in often very intimate terms of both moments of personal despair and personal triumph, telling in some cases stories some of us have heard before, except that the voice saying "I did this" and "I felt that" is not the voice of R. A. Dickey. That by itself is off-putting enough, albeit unavoidable (presumably, Mr. Dickey himself was either not available to record this or just wasn't a natural enough reader to produce a quality product).

What was NOT unavoidable, however, and what took me seriously out of the moment on a number of occasions, was apparently shoddy research on the part of the producers of the audio version of this book. The least one can do, I would think, in order to not continually remind us that the person reading this book is an "impostor" of sorts, would be to learn how to correctly pronounce the names of people and places referenced in the work. Surely the "real" R. A. Dickey knows that one-time Mets outfielder (now San Francisco Giants outfielder and All-Star) Angel Pagan uses the English pronunciation of his given name and the Spanish pronunciation of his surname (AIN-jel pa-GAN, not an-HEL pa-GAN), or that Dickey's most frequent battery mate, catcher Josh Thole, pronounces his last name "TOLE-ee," not "TOLE." That fact that the person reading this book aloud does NOT know these things makes it ever more abundantly clear that he is not R. A. Dickey.

These may seem like small things (there are a few others as well), but every time Mr. Hunter mispronounced one of these names, it immediately took me out of the moment and reminded me that I was listening to someone else telling R. A. Dickey's story but using the word "I."

Again, I realize that to some this might seem like a nitpick, and perhaps it is, but anyone who has followed R. A. Dickey's career closely enough to know the names of the other players he plays with -- or indeed anyone who is a baseball fan in New York, San Francisco, and (now) Toronto (where Dickey and Thole now play) is going to have the same reaction, I think, and it's a shame because it could have been so easily avoided.

So yes, I love the story, and yes, overall it's still a good listen. But I think the people who made the audio version of this book should have paid more attention to detail. These things matter, especially when you're using the word "I" and pretending to be a public figure. You can't have your narrator try to sound like R. A. Dickey, I guess -- that would be hokey -- but the least you can do is try to learn his vocabulary (including proper nouns). Otherwise, it's off-putting and embarrassing.

It's fine. I liked it (but didn't love it)

The struggle to overcome personal traumas occupied to large a percentage of the book imo. It is an important part of the story for sure and a clear point of emphasis for RA, but I mostly enjoyed hearing about his college baseball life, time in the minors, and long journey to the Majors, and later working with Hough, Niekro, and Wake to hone his knuckleball. His baseball journey is such an interesting one and it felt a shame to me that he ends the narration before he even gets to his best season, 2012. I wanted to hear about that and his subsequent move to Toronto and then how it started to fall apart in his 40s... So yeah, I enjoyed what he gave us but also felt that it could have been better...

RA Dickey

Excellent! Really glad that I listened to this.
RA has an amazing story & he is a great guy that has been through an awful lot.

Great Book! Questionable Production Quality.

Would you recommend this audiobook to a friend? If so, why?

Yes, I would. Even a non baseball fan who likes a good human interest story would enjoy it.

What other book might you compare Wherever I Wind Up to and why?

It's basically a good autobiography. It's not a "sports story," although since the author is a Major League Baseball player there are sports in it. It's really a human story about a man and his successes and failures in life. I thought it was very authentic and personal. There was no self-aggrandizing or bragging. Just an honest assessment of life. I would imagine it was therapeutic to write, and I thought it was therapeutic to read. In that way, it's unique (in my experience) among sports autobiographies.

Would you be willing to try another one of Ben Hunter’s performances?

Sure. The reader has a very plaintive, earnest tone to his voice, which fit this material very well. He's not on my top 10 favorite list or anything, but I'd definitely consider another performance of his.

Was there a moment in the book that particularly moved you?

Lots of parts. I don't want to spoil anything though, so I will leave it at that.

Any additional comments?

R.A. Dickey is a Christian and makes no attempt to disguise or minimize that fact. The book isn't preachy or proselytizing, but Dickey's Christian faith is ever present throughout the story.

Additionally, there are several points in the audio book where the same passage is repeated. It's only a paragraph or so; nothing overwhelming. But I thought it deserves a mention. It seems a rather amateurish error that could easily be avoided by the producer with a little more care.

Great story

If you could sum up Wherever I Wind Up in three words, what would they be?

A very troubling story for a man dedicated to the sport. For a man to go through such a career of so many ups and downs and be able to perform to the degree of perfection to become the National League Cy Young recipent for 2011 is an amazing accomplishment.

What other book might you compare Wherever I Wind Up to and why?

None comes to mind.

Which scene was your favorite?

the whole book.

Did you have an extreme reaction to this book? Did it make you laugh or cry?

yes

Any additional comments?

no

Blessed by reading this!

What an incredible story, and all this before he won the Cy Young. I enjoyed every single minute of this book.

HALF FULL or HAlF EMPTY?

Although I liked this book as a whole, and I don’t doubt the sincerity of R.A.’s story. I am at loss as to understand why he felt so completely compelled to bare the fact that he didn’t feel confident his own ability to be a good knuckleballer even after he had outperformed others in the same field! -( ? ) That said I enjoyed his honesty, and feel the book afforded me an opportunity to get an inside look at a very unique man who learned how to yield himself to the knuckleball, much like a swordsman yields his self up, lost in momentary action! And, perhaps that’s the point….!

Very interesting

This book kept my attention. The story is one of struggle, but never giving up. The Narrator is easy to listen to as well.

Fascinating story and lots of lessons

Loved how RA vulnerably shares his stories and how he worked through some really tough things.

His ability to persevere is amazing.

So many funny stories! Great book for baseball fans and people who want to hear about overcoming adversity.

Highly recommend!

To hear more about this book check out RA’s appearance on The Journey of a Christian Dad Podcast.

Awesome! Just awesome!

What an inspiration. Thank you for such a wonderful book and excellent narration. Just loved it