Panic & Joy

By: Emma Brockes

Narrated by: Emma Brockes

When British journalist, memoirist, and New York transplant Emma Brockes decides to become pregnant, she quickly realises that, being single, 37 and in the early stages of a same-sex relationship, she's going to have to be untraditional about it. From the moment she decides to stop 'futzing' around, have her eggs counted and 'get cracking'; through multiple trials of IUI, which she is intrigued to learn can be purchased in bulk packages, just like at Costco; to the births of her twins, which her girlfriend gamely documents with her iPhone and selfie stick, Brockes is never any less than bluntly honest about her extraordinary journey to motherhood.

She quizzes her friends on the pros and cons of personally knowing one's sperm donor, grapples with esoteric medical jargon and the existential brain melt of flipping through donor catalogues, and conjures with the politics of her Libertarian OB/GYN - all the while exploring the cultural circumstances and choices that have brought her to this point.

Brockes writes with charming, self-effacing humour about being a British woman undergoing fertility treatment in the United States, poking fun at the starkly different attitude of Americans. Anxious that biological children might not be possible, she wonders, should she resent society for how it regards and treats women who try and fail to have children? Brockes deftly uses her own story to examine how and why an increasing number of women are using fertility treatments in order to become parents - and are doing it solo. Bringing the listener every step of the way with mordant wit and remarkable candour, Brockes shares the frustrations, embarrassments, surprises and, finally, joys of her momentous and excellent choice.

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