Moody Tourist in Costa Rica, 2001

By: Maggie Hess

Narrated by: Judy Ruggles

This is an extensive diary of my time in Costa Rica from January to May 2001, sandwiched between two more recent reflective entries.

I recommend listening to this if you are interested in exploring Costa Rica, in what Monteverde, Costa Rica, was like in this particular time period before much of the modern development, or if you are interested in hearing a firsthand account of a young woman with bipolar disorder in between severe swings and culture shock.

In Costa Rica I lived with my sister, a botanical artist who was determined to add meaning to my life. She encouraged me to pick up fallen epiphyte flowers scattered on the path from 50 feet up in the canopy. I was her assistant. I ended up in her artwork, sometimes posing, other times unexpectedly gazing over the edge of the continental divide. There were places where we could stand and visibly see the Pacific Ocean to our left and the Atlantic Ocean to our right. The beauty of places such as that and many Appalachian locations quite honestly are so stunning they harbor a home in the human soul. My identity is composed of scenes like those: reasons for fighting, for gripping onto nature, grappling with factors that make the environment unhealthy.

Everyone who has ever spent a week in Monteverde seems to have seen the howler monkeys there. But Anna and I experienced a deeper wilderness. We spent all day wandering paths that Anna navigated like an expert. At one point, hundreds of migrating white-faced monkeys converged with our path. Anna told me to sit tight, knowing the wild animals could grow defensive if they felt threatened. I sat tight. They swung through the forest for almost an hour. They left me shaking, quaking quite literally, and trembling at their power.

I mention these things because this trip changed my life, my worldview, and my experience of nature.

©2001 Maggie Hess (P)2023 Maggie Hess