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Narrated by:
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Vikas Adam
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Ali Afkhami
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Nikki Massoud
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Nazanin Nour
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By:
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Arvin Ahmadi
About this listen
Simon vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda goes to Italy in Arvin Ahmadi's newest incisive look at identity and what it means to find yourself by running away.
Eighteen-year-old Amir Azadi always knew coming out to his Muslim family would be messy - he just didn't think it would end in an airport interrogation room. But when faced with a failed relationship, bullies, and blackmail, running away to Rome is his only option. Right?
Soon, late nights with new friends and dates in the Sistine Chapel start to feel like second nature...until his old life comes knocking on his door. Now, Amir has to tell the whole truth and nothing but the truth to a US Customs officer, or risk losing his hard-won freedom.
At turns uplifting and devastating, How It All Blew Up is Arvin Ahmadi's most powerful novel yet, a celebration of how life's most painful moments can live alongside the riotous, life-changing joys of discovering who you are.
©2020 Arvin Ahmadi (P)2020 Listening LibraryListeners also enjoyed...
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Critic reviews
"Arvin Ahmadi has written a novel that is authentic, hilarious, and heart-wrenching all at once. A unique point of view combined with riveting storytelling, How It All Blew Up will grab you from the first page and won't let go." (Angie Thomas, number one New York Times best-selling author of The Hate U Give and On the Come Up)
"Ahmadi’s writing is gripping, taking readers through the myriad emotions a gay Muslim teen experiences growing up in a country whose government is looking for an excuse to demonize Muslims." (Kirkus Reviews)
"A fully realized, deeply sympathetic character.... The result is compelling. (Booklist)
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The part that got me the most emotional was when Amir was telling Jahan he lied about his family kicking him out.
The Sistine chapel part was also really well written and I felt transported, even though I've only seen photos.
Loved it :D
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There's no MM romance here, just a gay coming-of-age story, a real adventure that's as much fun as the romp Oliver and Elio had in Rome in "Call Me By Your Name."
It was enough to make me want to jump on a plane and spend a month in the city. But listening to this book is probably more fun than an actual trip to Rome. The characters in this book are that intoxicating.
The novel is also fun in that it opens with a bang and unfolds in an inventive format, a series of flashbacks told by Amir and his family as they are being interrogated in different rooms at a U.S. airport after having an in-flight family spat.
So good.
Oh, and the narrators were excellent!
There better be sequels
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Best Book I’ve Read in a While
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Such a powerful story
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Listen via audio, the full cast performance makes this story, and the nature of it... trust me when I say it’s worth a listen.
The only way to hear this story is to listen...
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A very good story served up poorly
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