If you've ever felt betrayed by the world, only to discover what a self-help book could have taught you? Some wounds bring you to your knees and sometimes no one help can help. You have to pick yourself back up.

While I've had many rites-of-passage moments in my life, they were simply practice for the latest. And there is no bad guy in this story. Only teachers and students. And what ever you call those who refuse to learn from the pain.

James Fadiman, who popularized microdosing psychedelic mushrooms, wrote a book called the symphony of selves, referring to the concept that we have more than one voice speaking to us within. Some of those voices test us to see how much we value ourselves. Will we stick up for our boundaries? If not, who will bare the worst of it?

People in this world are hurt and when we cannot hold that pain alone, we project it and hope someone will come to our aid. But a particular kind of hurt that I experienced a few years back made me reconsider everything I believe.

The deeper I reconsidered my reality, the more I came to realize that there are no other voices outside my head. Just me in disguise. In this video I speak of what I noticed while I went through my healing process.

I learned that it was the little boy in me that needed to become a man that was hurt, scared, offended and lost.

As with a cymatic pattern in the sand created by a simple frequency, the phase it must enter in order to evolve into its next pattern is chaos. And chaos was the new normal in the dark void I found myself in just after the pain set in. I was drowning in the pain and resistance was futile.

But just like the Celine Cairo song expresses so beautifully, "I found a light" down on the bottom of the sea, and I took it with me. The answer was not to avoid the pain. It was to drown in it and put the old self to rest.

Something beautiful arose and I hope I express it well enough for you to see yourself in it.

In this episode I explore Curt Doolittle's views on masculine vs feminine neurology and where lies and undermining communication originates. He does a fantastic job modeling the way masculine and feminine neurology operates by spoke or unspoken contract. It's mathematical as well. The structure of the way we communicate is steeped in two evolutionary channels: Masculine and Feminine neurology.

I also tease apart some of the concepts around the role of men and women in the Iroquois nation and how they structured society to distribute power between the sexes while still honor the strengths of the masculine and feminine.

Finally, I dive into Curt's thoughts on the obstacle keeping our future generations from understanding masculine and feminine neurology as well as finance, economics and family divisions of labor. Apparently... it's the parents.

I give my thoughts at the end about where I think the problem truly exists.

Neurocinema is a new field of research that looks at exactly how TV programs, commercials and films effect the neurology of the viewer. The more accurately the producer can predict the audience reaction, the more successful the film typically is at achieving its intended goal: Your attention, your money and Your time.

In this episode I explore this new field and what it could mean for the future of films and video content. If you've heard of Bespoke medicine (which means tailor made for you), then you'll get a kick out of Bespoke TV. The future of film content is allowing the movie to actually change in real time based on audience reaction.

This sounds like an incredible advancement in entertainment and a scary advancement in military grade behavioral modification technology.

Watch this exciting episode to get familiar with this new world we're stepping into... and remember: You are the most powerful technology.

Technology is fusing human with the internet in ways you may not expect. Dive deep into the Internet of Bodies, its aims and how it can be seen as something useful rather than having the knee jerk reaction of thinking all tech leads to technofeudalism.

You are the most powerful technology. Don't ever forget that.

Have you ever wondered how powerful Story must be to be the oldest social technology and the way all modern governments and corporations recruit massive support for agenda's that aren't even beautiful? In this episode I break down the power of story and its application in every day life to show you that you're not in need of some external solution to your problems. The solution is already within you, awaiting refinement.

Your capacity to understand the self-author your story is impactful to the world around you. It is the power of manifestation that can be seen from corporations to Bitcoin. If people believe, more people believe. We influence each other through the power of story.

Catherine Austin Fitts breaks down how Bitcoin may be purchased by the federal and state governments in Trump's proposed Strategic Bitcoin Reserve. I link a few threads from Catherine to highlight a part of Agenda 21 that I've been seeing since my first film Esoteric Agenda. Catherine proposed the possibility of crypto whales liquidating their bitcoin, which would crash the price and disrupt the progress of the technology. So a government buying program might bail-out heavy Bitcoin holders from their holdings.

This is all theoretical but listening to it might illuminate deeper functions of a Strategic Bitcoin Reserve and even Trump's Sovereign Wealth Fund.

After the United States helped deploy missiles from Ukraine into Russia, the threat of World War III is all people want to talk about. In this episode, I expose the Boogey-Man Story that all nations feed their people in what's called the "Multi-Polar Trap.

This is a gaming dilemma in which competing nation states must keep growing in military might (aka violent force) or else someone else will. It's the same dilemma that incentivizes deceiving other nations as well as domestic citizens.

I call upon artists to produce online content that seeds the idea of the new story unbound by the multi-polar trap and the zero sum game that produces psychopaths with the nuclear codes.

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There's no easier way to say this and have it land. There is legislation in motion under the 30x30 American the Beautiful Act that states it will put thirty (30) percent of US land under federal jurisdiction to preserve nature against human influence.

In this episode, I break down Kamala Harris's involvement in pushing this agenda through in 2021. It is directly correlated to Agenda 21 that I highlighted in my 2008 film Esoteric Agenda.

Thanks to Catherine Austin Fitts and the Financial Rebellion podcast for bringing the 30x30 American the Beautiful Act to my attention.

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