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Pondoff's Anonymous

De: Chris Pondoff Jeff Allen Jakob Miller
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 Pondoff's Anonymous is the unfiltered recovery podcast that says the quiet part out loud. Hosted by Chris Pondoff, Jeff Allen, and Jakob Miller, this show brings real conversations about addiction, recovery, and everything in between — no sugarcoating, no bullshit. It’s not polished. It’s not perfect. It’s honest. Each episode dives deep into the stories behind relapse, trauma, shame, growth, and the hard f*cking work of getting better. You’ll hear from addicts, sober warriors, and the people who walk beside them — including friends, family, and the ones who stuck around when shit got dark.Chris Pondoff, Jeff Allen, Jakob Miller Hygiene & Healthy Living Psicología Psicología y Salud Mental
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  • S2 E20 The Science of Addiction | Pondoff's Anonymous x No Lions Here Crossover Episode

    S2 E20 The Science of Addiction | Pondoff's Anonymous x No Lions Here Crossover Episode
    Jun 16 2025
    Crossover Chaos: The Science of Addiction Who this episode is for:
    • Anyone who’s ever stared down their own addictions
    • Families who don’t get why their loved one can’t “just stop”
    • The “I’m not an addict, but I totally have addictive behaviors” crowd
    • People obsessed with the science behind why their brains keep screwing them over
    • Therapy nerds, recovery warriors, and dudes who need to get over being "too tough" to talk about emotions
    • And of course — anyone who’s ever made a complete dumpster fire of their life
    🎧 Crossover Chaos: The Science of Addiction — Jakob Miller x Big Panda

    This one’s a little different. Jakob Miller from Pondoff’s Anonymous links up with Alex “Big Panda” Kaiser for a crossover between Pondoff’s Anonymous and No Lions Here. It’s raw, unfiltered, and exactly what you’d expect when two recovering addicts sit down and try to explain the brain science behind addiction without sounding like nerdy scientists.

    Jakob breaks down his "Science of Addiction" class that he runs at Illinois Recovery Center — and finally records it for the masses. If you’ve ever sat in a treatment center, argued whether addiction is a disease, or wondered why you keep sabotaging your own life, this one’s for you.

    They cover it all: trauma, dopamine, irrational thinking, relapse symptoms, why triggers are a scam, and how to hack your own brain before it tricks you back into using.

    No sugarcoating. No bullshit. Just the real, uncomfortable truth about how addiction rewires your survival system and why emotional honesty might be the one thing that saves your life.

    🧪 Resources Mentioned:
    • Illinois Recovery Center — https://illinoisrecoverycenter.com
    • No Lions Here Podcast — https://open.spotify.com/show/57389wCMh6z9aZgNqjgUSd?si=ffed6a42d19043c5
    ⏱ Full Episode Breakdown:
    • 0:00 — Intro & Crossover Explained
    • 1:25 — Jakob's Science of Addiction class: origins & goals
    • 5:00 — Breaking down the “disease” model: treatable, not curable
    • 8:15 — Trauma vs. addiction: Jakob's personal story
    • 14:00 — The switch theory: when addiction gets "turned on"
    • 19:00 — The 4 key symptoms that predict relapse
    • 25:00 — Obsession, self-centeredness, irrational thinking, compulsion: deep dive
    • 32:00 — Dopamine 101: how the brain wires addiction as survival
    • 38:30 — Functional MRI studies: your cravings vs starvation
    • 44:00 — Cravings, urges, triggers: why most coping advice is useless
    • 48:00 — Hacking the brain with Navy SEAL tricks & cognitive exercises
    • 54:00 — Practicing coping skills: the only way they actually start to work
    • 59:00 — 90-in-90 meetings: how to taper off the right way
    • 1:03:00 — Emotional intelligence: why men must feel their shit
    • 1:09:00 — Jakob’s personal triggers and early relapse warning signs
    • 1:15:00 — Drug choice is irrelevant: a dopamine problem is a dopamine problem
    • 1:21:00 — How irrational thinking nearly killed Jakob
    • 1:26:00 — Emotional honesty and real recovery work for men
    • 1:32:00 — Wrapping it up: facing emotions head-on to stay alive
    Sponsored by
    • Illinois Recovery Center
    • Bertarelli Cutlery
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    1 h y 6 m
  • BONUS: Cristina Preston Re-Release

    BONUS: Cristina Preston Re-Release
    Jun 9 2025
    Who this episode is for: Anyone outworking pain in the gymFolks from good homes who wrecked their livesPeople with pasts they swore they’d never shareAnyone who’s felt like a fraud—addict or notChurch kids hiding chaos behind smiles Chris is on a Staten Island ferry, pizza grease on his fingers, yelling at Lady Liberty and eating humble pie ‘cause the remote-record plan tanked. But that tech fail is your gain—because we’re re-dropping a raw convo with Cristina Preston: fitness model, news junkie, steroid-using bodybuilder, trafficking survivor, and miracle in motion. She leads Celebrate Recovery in Fenton, MO, but she’s lived the wreckage—bullying, self-harm, covering a school shooting, being trafficked during addiction, shady doctors, and a Vegas wedding that made her dad cry the wrong way. This one’s heavy and holy. Laugh. Cry. Throw a chair. Hug your mom. ⏱️ Full Timestamp Breakdown 00:00 – Ferry intro: busted tech & grandma’s 100th01:50 – Why this is a re-release03:20 – Goldberg tease: Ducks, meth, mayhem04:05 – Cristina joins: war-tested & real05:30 – How Chris found Cristina’s testimony06:45 – Celebrate Recovery ain’t just AA08:15 – Codependency, food, image issues09:20 – Why “grateful believer” hits different10:30 – Honesty over polish11:15 – CR outnumbers Starbucks?!12:20 – Church-run, same vibe everywhere13:45 – Big lessons, big tears14:50 – Pondoff talks real recovery spaces16:05 – Why safe doesn’t mean soft17:45 – Losing a dog in sobriety20:00 – Sitting in pain instead of escaping22:00 – Cristina’s “perfect” upbringing23:30 – Bullying & broken stalls25:30 – Before we knew “anxiety”27:15 – The high-achieving mask28:10 – Speech team nerd to newsroom30:00 – Covering the NIU school shooting32:45 – Trauma, Valentine’s, heartbreak34:20 – Cancelled wedding, lost faith36:50 – Panic attacks & silence38:45 – Gym life as addiction in disguise40:30 – Attention, abs, and adrenaline42:00 – Bikini comps & pressure43:45 – First steroid cycle45:00 – “Helpful” doctor + real side effects46:30 – Vegas wedding, mall ring, regrets48:15 – Cocaine enters stage right50:10 – Using on the move51:30 – Broke, exposed, unraveling53:00 – Dependent and out of options54:10 – Doctor with blank-label pills55:30 – Lies, performance, denial57:10 – Who even am I?58:45 – Comfort in chaos01:00:00 – From worshipped to wasted01:01:30 – Realizing it’s all a façade01:03:00 – Surrender & grace01:05:00 – Truth through accountability01:06:20 – Living life again01:07:45 – Family healing01:09:00 – Second marriage, no lies01:10:15 – Parenthood post-recovery01:12:00 – Telling your kids the truth01:13:20 – Sharing to save others01:14:40 – Message to the struggling01:16:00 – How to plug into CR01:17:30 – Church ≠ performance01:19:00 – What healing really means01:20:20 – Sobriety doesn’t erase shame01:23:00 – Self-forgiveness is brutal01:25:00 – Cristina opens up: trafficked in addiction01:27:30 – Manipulated, silenced by shame01:29:00 – Her son asks the hard questions01:32:10 – Even now, cravings sneak in01:34:45 – Triggers: mirrors, songs, stores01:38:20 – Faith in the ugly middle01:40:50 – Leading while healing01:44:10 – Routine, friends, raw prayer01:47:00 – “You’re not too far gone”01:50:30 – Chris on public shame & honesty01:53:00 – Jakob & Jeff on spiritual BS01:55:45 – Cristina hated “Christianese” too01:58:20 – Healing doesn’t follow rules02:00:10 – Why CR keeps her grounded02:03:30 – Sobriety is sacred and simple02:06:00 – Stories evolve—they don’t end02:10:00 – Gratitude for lifelines02:12:45 – “Stay here”—for anyone slipping02:15:30 – Chris signs off from the ferry02:17:40 – END 🙏 Sponsor Shoutout: Illinois Recovery Center – Putting broken pieces back together. 👉 https://illinoisrecoverycenter.com/Bertarelli Cutlery – Blades that slice through your bullshit. 👉 https://bertarellico.com/
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    2 h y 18 m
  • S2 E19 Angela Schenewerk

    S2 E19 Angela Schenewerk
    Jun 2 2025

    Who this episode is for:
    • Anyone battling booze, burnout, or both
    • Moms hanging on by a thread with a wine glass in hand
    • Those who think “functioning alcoholic” means everything’s fine
    • Anyone who ever woke up and said, “How the hell did I get here?”
    • People not in recovery who’ve ever run from themselves and called it “freedom”

    Episode Title: "Closet Wine & Corporate Flights: Angela’s Fight for Herself"

    Angela Schenewerk shows up and blows the roof off. From Cahokia childhood to hidden booze bottles in adulthood, she takes us through what it’s like to lose yourself in motherhood, wine, work trips, and bad relationships—and still come crawling back with a pulse. This one’s got fake arrests, rehab denial, blackouts, stalking boyfriends, air mattresses with wine underneath, and the dangerous myth of “having it together.” It’s wild. It’s heavy. It’s very Pondoff’s Anonymous.

    Episode Timestamps:

    • 00:00 - Bertarelli Cutlery shoutout & intro 🔪
    • 01:26 - Angela enters the chat: Cahokia pride, first kisses & frozen rinks 🏒💋
    • 05:01 - Bullied, broke & beloved: childhood chaos with JJ the underdog 👧💔
    • 10:06 - Fake cops at a party, chipped teeth & her first wine cooler 🚓🍷
    • 15:33 - Marriage, the bar biz, and wine as a coping strategy 🥂🏗️
    • 20:48 - Work trips = escape hatch: hotel drinking begins 🏨🍾
    • 25:57 - Freedom or isolation? India trip blurs the line 🇮🇳😶‍🌫️
    • 30:39 - Skipping a wedding to drink alone: the addict’s choice 👰🚫
    • 35:14 - Closet wine rituals, motherhood pressure & boxed denial 🧃🧠
    • 39:58 - Bottles hidden everywhere, vodka refilled with water 💧🍸
    • 44:15 - The trash bag moment: caught red-handed & broken 🗑️😵
    • 45:41 - Rehab round one: denial, comparison & zero humility 🚫🏥
    • 50:03 - Apartment after the split: air mattress, no furniture, lots of wine 🛏️🍷
    • 54:17 - Trying to drink “normally” and failing fast 🌀📉
    • 56:40 - Enter: the GPS-tracking boyfriend & Punta Cana chaos 📍🌴
    • 01:01:19 - Alcohol over everything—even all-inclusives & love 💔🍺
    • 01:03:33 - Stood him up for Cabo so she could drink freely at home ✈️🏠
    • 01:06:08 - Hacked emails, blackmail & rock bottom behavior 💻🕳️
    • 01:09:44 - Drinking before the kids woke up & donut-lie mornings 🍩🥃
    • 01:14:27 - From motherhood to misery: drinking to function 👩‍👦‍👦💀
    • 01:18:56 - Rehab roulette: detox, flights, and every excuse in the book 🎢✈️
    • 01:22:35 - Still not ready to stop. Still not done breaking her own heart ⏳💣
    • 01:26:47 - Final reflections: lost dreams, missed weddings & brutal truth 🪞🧨

    Angela Schenewerk – Mom, ex-wife, closet drinker, blackout flyer, and survivor with a mic.
    This is the kind of episode you share with someone who's still out there, hiding it all and thinking nobody sees them. Angela was that person. And she made it back.

    Need help? Know someone who does?
    Illinois Recovery Center

    Keep your knives sharp (literally):
    Bertarelli Cutlery

    Pondoff’s Anonymous – where we call bullshit on silence, shame, and fake recovery stories.
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    2 h y 19 m
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