Alice I Have Been

A Novel

De: Melanie Benjamin

Narrado por: Samantha Eggar

Few works of literature are as universally beloved as Alice's Adventures in Wonderland. Now, in this spellbinding historical novel, we meet the young girl whose bright spirit sent her on an unforgettable trip down the rabbit hole - and the grown woman whose story is no less enthralling.

But oh my dear, I am tired of being Alice in Wonderland. Does it sound ungrateful?

Alice Liddell Hargreavess life has been a richly woven tapestry: As a young woman, wife, mother, and widow, she's experienced intense passion, great privilege, and greater tragedy. But as she nears her 81st birthday, she knows that, to the world around her, she is and will always be only Alice. Her life was permanently dog-eared at one fateful moment in her 10th year - the golden summer day she urged a grown-up friend to write down one of his fanciful stories.

That story, a wild tale of rabbits, queens, and a precocious young child, becomes a sensation the world over. Its author, a shy, stuttering Oxford professor, does more than immortalize Alice - he changes her life forever. But even he cannot stop time, as much as he might like to. And as Alice's childhood slips away, a peacetime of glittering balls and royal romances gives way to the urgent tide of war.

For Alice, the stakes could not be higher, for she is the mother of three grown sons, soldiers all. Yet even as she stands to lose everything she treasures, one part of her will always be the determined, undaunted Alice of the story, who discovered that life beyond the rabbit hole was an astonishing journey.

A love story and a literary mystery, Alice I Have Been brilliantly blends fact and fiction to capture the passionate spirit of a woman who was truly worthy of her fictional alter ego, in a world as captivating as the Wonderland only she could inspire.

©2010 Melanie Benjamin (P)2010 Random House

Great Premise, So-So Result

How convenient that I finished this novel just as Tim Burton's new version of Alice in Wonderland is sweeping the country! The narrator is Alice Liddell Hargreaves, once the little girl for whom Lewis Carroll/Charles Dodson wrote the famous tale. It begins and ends with Alice, age 80, wrapping up a tour of America and relates the details of her relationship with Dodson. Was it an innocent friendship, an impossible love affair, or something more sinister? Alice keeps us guessing up until the end, dropping tantalizing tidbits along the way that, I confess, sometimes made me cringe a bit. The repeated motif is "that day on the train"--a day that Alice claims to have little recollection of but which resulted in the Liddells cutting off all contact with Mr. Dodson.

Even more fascinating than her relationship with Mr. Dodson are those with her mother and her older sister Ina--but I won't give anything away here for those who might want to read about it for themselves. The remainder of Alice's life is a fairly typical Victorian portrait of a woman who marries a nice man who is not the first or even second love of her life but rather her ticket out of an unpleasant home life and a spinster's future. Years later, like so many women of her era, she has to face the trauma of watching her sons going off to the battlefields of World War I.

My overall reaction to the book is mixed. At times, I was captivated, but at other times, the novel seemed rather a dull and conventional, like something I must have read many times before. Worth reading, in other words, but not exceptional.

I wasn’t sure about this book in the beginning!

I tried reading this originally and stopped because it didn’t hold my interest. Somehow I ended up ordering it on audible too. So I decided to give it another try and I am glad I did. The book is slow in the beginning and gets better further in.

Wonderful in Wonderland

Very insightful and beautifully written novel about the real Alice and Lewis Carroll. This book will have you rushing to google to read the history and check out the famous photo's Carroll took of Alice Liddal and her sisters so many years ago. Story is very well told and the narrator does a first rate job. You won't be disappointed.

Extremely well written

What made the experience of listening to Alice I Have Been the most enjoyable?

Melanie Benjamin is a superb writer. She not only creates a spellbinding story about Alice Liddell, she presents a poignant and compelling view of Victorian Oxford and the impact and losses suffered with WWI.

Who was your favorite character and why?

Alice Liddell.

Any additional comments?

A wonderful book not only because of the tie to Lewis Carroll's books but Ms. Benjamin kept me interested though out Alice Liddell's life.

One of my favorites!

I bought the printed copy of this book back in 2010 and cried like a baby at the end. Not sure why. Alice's life was tragic in my mind and left a sorrow in my heart. A life well lived, for sure, but I wanted so much more for her. It remains one of my favorite books.

Solid Underpinnings, Beautifully Written

As a person quite familiar with the actual histories of Charles Dodgson (aka Lewis Carroll), Alice P. (Liddell) Hargreaves, and the "Adventures of Alice Underground" I must say that this is one of the most lovely, beautifully-written, and enchanting fictional works done on this subject.

Yes, it touches upon the 20th and 21st Century conjecture that Dodgson (as well as John Ruskin) was a paedophile, but does so with factual convention and without salacious conjecture or uncomfortable accusation. (I personally believe Dodgson was not a paedophile, by the way.)

The very intricate weaving of facts with fiction, along with the authentic historical nature of this book, is breathtaking for both those who know little or alot about the persons involved.

In fact, the intricacy is so striking that I urge those who listen to this book to search online for the persons mentioned in order to fully understand just how profound and complicated this story really is, and how masterfully it has been written.

A "must read".

Loved It!

Would you consider the audio edition of Alice I Have Been to be better than the print version?

Difficult to say. Though I think the performance was stellar.

Who was your favorite character and why?

Dodson. Did not realize that CS Lewis was a pen name.

Which scene was your favorite?

The ballroom dance with Leopold.

If you were to make a film of this book, what would the tag line be?

We're not in Wonderland....any more.

Any additional comments?

This is a really good book. There were times i liked and disliked Alice and her family. Especially calling the servants MaryAnn. But this was typical of the time and we forget how the English looked down on everyone including the Americans. I really enjoyed this book it is a good read!

Love Melanie Benjamin!

If you could sum up Alice I Have Been in three words, what would they be?

Sad. Strange. Intense.

Who was your favorite character and why?

Definitely poor little Alice. What a bizarre world she lived in. You just root for her to finally find happiness.

What does Samantha Eggar bring to the story that you wouldn’t experience if you just read the book?

The characters really came to life with her reading. The creepy people were creepier for sure.

If you were to make a film of this book, what would be the tag line be?

I am so bad at this. Let's see. "See where the rabbit hole REALLY took Alice."

Any additional comments?

Not as good as Mrs. Thumb, but still so great, especially if you love Alice In Wonderland.

Perfect Combination of Story and Narration

I don't know if I would give this book 5 stars if I just read it. However, Samantha Eggar's narration of the audiobook is phenomenal. She really voiced Alice's emotions perfectly. There were a couple of times that I just ended up sobbing.

Now, I'm going to try to talk about content. Alice I Have Been takes the known facts of Alice Liddell's life and tries to explain the mystery of why Alice and her family had absolutely no contact with Charles Dodgson (Lewis Carroll) starting around the time she was 10 or 11 years old. I hope it's not a spoiler to say that I am very uncomfortable with the theory Melanie Benjamin bases this novel on. I did find it interesting to learn that Dodgson was a math professor who was a photography buff. When I did a Google search of his photos while listening to this story, I found it a bit creepy that he mostly photographed little girls.

Although I don't read many historical fiction books, I have noticed that some of them try to include every detail about the historical period. It can be really annoying and too many details take away from the novel. Benjamin completely avoids that trap. She includes plenty of detail, but does it in a completely natural way. Her description of Victorian clothing and manners were especially good.

I'm not a fan of Alice's Adventures in Wonderland & Through the Looking-Glass, but I was really fascinated by the story behind the story, even if it's highly fictionalized. There's one scene near the end where an elderly Alice meets the man who was the basis for Peter Pan. He's about thirty years old. Benjamin gives the reader just enough of a glimpse of him to leave me wanting to see her write a book about him.

Interesting... but creepy!

Alice was an interesting character so I felt compared to keep going, despite the fact that the story was very unsettling and made me feel uncomfortable.

Not a very helpful review but overall I don’t know what to make of it! It was creepy.